i gotta suspicion everyone got a secret hoard of something they keep hidden from their friends let if its shoes and makeup or like teacups that shits fine and all but once i went to my buddy mikes house and like,, well i knew him for years since like fucking 2006, we talk non stop,used to be my bff of the year and what not, ya whatever, i hop to get something from his basement once and i turn on the light and its littered with not a handful, but at least 20 hand made dollhouses with little trees and paint jobs and everything made from wood he harvested from his fathers construction company, all he missing is furniture and little people like FUCK that fucked me up so bad, but thats not the point of my story here see, it didnt fuck w me as much as after i visited my not so much anymore freinds house in 10th grade and she had a collection of her friends hair and she asked me for a snippet becasue she never had blue before and i went home and blocked her number anyway she jsut messaged me on instagram 30 min ago and i had to like sit in my kitchen in the dark for a while jsut thinking about how scary it is to know people but not know them at all
heres some pics cuz i actually i love his little houses they just took me by surprise cuz he aint seem like the type
oh it aint me!!! i bitched to him that he got like 0 fucking people living in his fucking basement village so he was all, then fucking buy me some??
so i went on a miniture dollhouse website and bought him his first citizen and he laughed cuz it was this lil motherfucker
if u look closely hes the black dot in the first pic in front of the white house!!!
This is cute and I’m glad you were so supportive of something he was embarrassed of
you really have to stop treating your friends like therapists. they are not your therapists. you cannot bind them with the entirety of your deep set trauma and only seek them out for the alleviation of your pain (regardless of how severe your pain is!) when you give minimal return. a friendship is dual-sided, mutually beneficial. a friendship is when you listen and you reflect because you care about them. a friendship can heal you, but if all you do is neglect the needs of the other, than you are not acting as a friend. if all you do is take and expect them to take, you are not acting as a friend. really, you are acting as someone who believes that they are completely entitled to the emotional labor of someone else for free. if you want to have good friends who are there for you, be a good friend first. if you need someone to talk to, find a therapist. a therapist and a friend are not interchangeable.
pervasive doubt 